Father John's homily
"I desire mercy, not sacrifice."
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"I desire mercy, not sacrifice."
posted by Jonathan @ 9/25/2005 09:31:00 p.m. 0 comments
Based on The Finer Points of Teaching Rules by Mario T. Lanza
posted by Jonathan @ 9/25/2005 06:49:00 p.m. 0 comments
Based on The Finer Points of Teaching Rules by Mario T. Lanza
posted by Jonathan @ 9/24/2005 05:36:00 p.m. 2 comments
"The time will come when all toil and trouble will cease: everything temporal is short lived and of little consequence." [Imitation, ch. 47]
posted by Jonathan @ 9/21/2005 09:32:00 p.m. 0 comments
Standing on the dock at Swan Lake
The journey here I have forgotten
Consumed as I was by thoughts,
Thoughts, too much thinking.
And as I have lived, the lake too has grown,
Aged, dignified, quiet.
On this dock, fresh wood has replaced the rotten
But let us not forget
How well the old had served us.
I live a stone's throw from the lake
The lake I hardly visit
And today when I come it is unrecognizable, beautiful
Morning mists and lush, verdant greens;
Still green flecks make a matrix in the waters,
Noisy ripples advance their centres toward me.
There is life beneath.
Suddenly I have the urge to throw this palm pilot into the lake
To fling it far and high, making an arc
Til it meet its end with a ceremonious splash.
posted by Jonathan @ 9/18/2005 09:32:00 p.m. 0 comments
Today I received a letter from the future,
On a Sunday, a letter about Monday,
My shoulders drooped, my stomach tightened,
A reaction to the reminder of the whirlwind.
"Let the day's evil suffice for the day."
I tried to lose myself in games and amusements
Tried to forget the future.
My gut hardened.
"Let the day's evil suffice for the day."
And so I was forcibly reminded
Of the knife edge between pleasure and pain
The thin slice of air
Between the diversion and that from which we divert ourselves.
That the promise of security is a lie.
"Let the day's evil suffice for the day.".
posted by Jonathan @ 9/18/2005 09:32:00 p.m. 0 comments
Walking down Nelthorpe Street
The wind blows into my ears
And I can hear the ocean's tide in the trees
The ripple of the currents in the skies.
In the distance the tall oaks
Stand proud as they always have,
I wait for the silence to teach me what busy-ness will not.
It teaches me nothing, so I doze.
posted by Jonathan @ 9/18/2005 09:32:00 p.m. 0 comments
* "my thoughts are not your thoughts"
* "to live is Christ, and to die is gain"
* "the last shall be first, and the first shall be last"
God's standard of forgiveness,
Not human standard of forgiveness.
This is how to prepare forthe reign of God.
posted by Jonathan @ 9/18/2005 09:32:00 p.m. 0 comments
Clocking in at an hour and a half, I have completed my (painful) GTD Weekly Review!
posted by Jonathan @ 9/17/2005 08:13:00 p.m. 0 comments
Tiredness creeps around the eyelids
posted by Jonathan @ 9/15/2005 09:36:00 p.m. 2 comments
On the web, there's only passion, words, and the presence of others [Small Pieces 171]
posted by Jonathan @ 9/11/2005 07:18:00 p.m. 0 comments
Sunday afternoon
A vague, uncomfortable sense
That I have not lived the day well
Somehow squandered the sacred time
On newspapers
Now with the sun at an angle in the west
I hope to redeem the evening
With what?
Not with culinary delights
Nor making anything
No drawings or inventions, not tonight
But being still
Observing the breath
posted by Jonathan @ 9/11/2005 07:18:00 p.m. 2 comments
* forgiveness from God is conditional on our forgiveness of others
* reflect on scripture and be grateful
* key is prayer + obedience
posted by Jonathan @ 9/11/2005 07:18:00 p.m. 0 comments
* Living for God
* Making things that make life wonderful
* Cherishing my family
* Random acts of kindness
posted by Jonathan @ 9/11/2005 07:18:00 p.m. 0 comments
Saturday morning 8:41
The ferry sharply turns into Active Pass
The black, wrinkled waters look alien
To my computer-accustomed eyes.
Looking at the grassy brown banks
I reminisce of old camping days
Of campfires and music-making
At an early hour
The brain is unsure whether to wake or sleep
The mind confused as to how to spend this hour profitably
The heart tired and forlorn
The body startled by a sound
I read today
That only the one who cares neither to please nor displease
Is at peace
This teaching is too hard
Who can bear it?
The day questions me
How will you spend the morning
What plans have you for the afternoon
Will you spend the evening profitably?
The black seas crinkle like crumpled paper
The sky spits
The air swirls about me with cold
And so I move indoors
Saturday is supposed to be for leisure
For pleasure, for Saturday morning cartoons
Reading the front page with a cappucino in hand
Then why do I feel dread?
I wish to remain awake
To be conscious of the feel of the ground
Senses not dulled by the pleasure of a chocolate bar
But the consequence of mental acuity
Is the lucid sameness of it all
We realize that experience is not as stimulating as we had hoped
Slowly the faraway banks bob up and down
I am to meet someone not seen in years
A mixture of anticipation and dread.
posted by Jonathan @ 9/11/2005 07:18:00 p.m. 0 comments
"Our most important constructions are not the pages we put up or the stories we tell or the poems we record or the videos we post. Far more important is the way we reinvent what it means to be together as human beings." [Small Pieces 195]
posted by Jonathan @ 9/11/2005 07:18:00 p.m. 0 comments
"The Web's movement is toward human authenticity." [Small Pieces 191]
posted by Jonathan @ 9/11/2005 07:18:00 p.m. 0 comments
After using XEmacs as my text editor for a couple of years, I'm going to try jEdit for a little while. I've heard so many good things about it.
posted by Jonathan @ 9/11/2005 04:49:00 p.m. 0 comments
Reading Victor Frankl's gripping account of suffering in the concentration camps, and how some people somehow managed to rise abo their suffering. Good lessons to be learned. The book is called "Man's Search For Meaning", and there are some copies in the library.
posted by Jonathan @ 9/09/2005 10:29:00 p.m. 0 comments
Hoo boy, two hours of mental pain: just finished my GTD weekly review. w00t!
posted by Jonathan @ 9/09/2005 10:27:00 p.m. 0 comments
* doing things out of love vs out of duty
posted by Jonathan @ 9/04/2005 08:38:00 p.m. 0 comments
Today I took a tour of my hometown
What struck me most
Were the buildings -- how their use had changed
Far from the intent of those who built them
The fashionable Bank of Montreal
Now an Irish pub
Carnegie's magnificent public library
Now government offices, and space for rent.
Stately St. Ann's Academy
Government offices.
Proud, imposing Metropolitan Methodist
Now a theatre.
And the house where you live
In a century others will inhabit
Two centuries, demolished and rebuilt
Three centuries, a lawyer's office or public market.
posted by Jonathan @ 9/04/2005 08:38:00 p.m. 0 comments
From my afternoon nap I awake
Outside the chattering leaves flicker as the
Sun darts in and out of clouds
The brain fog gradually lifts
Clarity returns
Daylight intensifies and the
Question of what to do next
That terrible, powerful question
Which must be asked when you have a free hour.
I could walk
Or write letters
Or sillily fret about what to choose
Call distant friends
Meditate
Write verse.
posted by Jonathan @ 9/04/2005 08:38:00 p.m. 0 comments
Let the girls at the cashiers chat
And do not interrupt them
It is Sunday, let them stop and rest
From their work
Return in a few minutes to see if they have
Resumed from their leisure
Stop a while yourself
And remember the reason for this day
posted by Jonathan @ 9/04/2005 08:38:00 p.m. 0 comments
If you sit quietly
And lose yourself in the sights before you
You will hear the breath of the refrigerator
The eternal inhale and hum
And if you are looking outside, you will see
Trees you had long forgotten
You will notice the pleasing forms of new trees
And the birds making pleasant patterns
In the sky
posted by Jonathan @ 9/04/2005 09:39:00 a.m. 0 comments
Hungry
Bored
In the silence
In the stillness, only the clock ticks, unwelcome
Love the emptiness
Love the nothingness
Where nothing separates you and reality
Reality not padded with noises or pictures
Reality in all its frightening majesty
In this humble stillness, quietly eat.
posted by Jonathan @ 9/03/2005 11:21:00 p.m. 0 comments
Bored bored bored
Understimulated, needing
Constant stimulation, but I'll
Not turn the TV on
Nor read a novel tonight, I shall
Sit in
Silence and
Peace
posted by Jonathan @ 9/03/2005 11:21:00 p.m. 0 comments
Clocking in at 3 hours (7PM-9:59PM), my GTD weekly review is now complete. Phew! A weight has definitely been lifted from my chest. But the weekly review was painful, as it always is, consuming a great deal of mental energy.
posted by Jonathan @ 9/03/2005 09:58:00 p.m. 0 comments
Sunny and warm
The smells of childhood schooltime
The smells of carefree and play
Longing for those days
It's September school weather
The sunlight triggers nostalgia
The light, which I so rarely see
Being indoors most of the time.
Crackly tan leaves
The leaves that remind you of school-days
The smell of leaves and sunlight
The smell of algebra and equations
The heat beating on your forehead
In your hometown.
And it gets a little hot
The dull thud of reality sounds in the distance
And in the heart
Labour Day weekend, and what shall I do?
Three blessed days off, and how shall I spend them?
How to rest, without dissipation,
Exploration without idleness
Stimulation without shallowness
And yet, I enjoy this pleasant idleness
Though conscience warns against wasting time.
posted by Jonathan @ 9/03/2005 05:11:00 p.m. 0 comments